Wide Eye Ingenue

So when you've already lived with your future husband, being married feels striking similar to what being single does except you do it more :)

In all honesty, our wedding was completely beautiful. The week leading upto it sucked something horrible but that day, we couldn't have asked for anything nicer. The weather was gorgeous, everyone looked so beautiful and the ceremony was very emotional. Andy and I wrote our own vows and though I thought mine were good, Andy's brought down the house. My Dad was crying so hard and people whom I never expected to get emotional were in full tears.

Below the cut is pictures if you are interested. They are the super nice pictures from our photographer. I can't wait for those because man, they took so many I thought I was on America's Next Top Model wedding edition.

I'm really sad to see the day go because this was the first time we could get all of us (family & friends) together in the same place in a long time. Who knows when we'll be able to do that again?

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Wedding on Saturday. I have so much stuff to do this week. I need to go to bed but everytime I lay down all I think about is all I have to do and I hope I don't forget something important.

I'm not nervous about the actual getting married it's just hoping that everything runs smoothly. I know that the day won't be perfect but I want it to go as well as humanely possible. It seems like everytime I think I have everything organized and under control, something else pops up and I'm so afraid I'm gonna forget something.

I'm gonna take a Tylenol PM and try to sleep.

So if you don't want to read me bitching about wedding planning, I am giving you the chance to close out of this now....





So I am pissed. For one, I am in a lot of pain because I just had a crown put on my back molar which was chipped. So much of this might be pain related.

First of all, I want to say that people don't seem to realize how hard it is planning a wedding on a budget. I am trying to make the most elegant, sit down dinner possible with limited funds. You girls who have an open budget for your wedding, I commend you and am jealous but I am not in that boat.

Now, the whole guest situtation. Andy and I wanted an intimate wedding with only people WE KNEW. We did not want just random people sharing this moment with us. We weren't doing a feeding trough/buffet where it didn't matter on an exact number. We are doing a sit down dinner so when people are taking it upon themselves to add guests, it's putting alot of strains on us.

When your invitation doesn't read "Mr. Blank & Guest" that means you do not bring a guest. Now there are exceptions. Those of you who emailed me and asked to bring someone, that's fine, that's wonderful. You are showing us the respect that we deserve. Those of you who are just adding people to the RSVP, I want to kill you. AND... people aren't even putting down the name of the person, they are just putting "and guest" so in my mind that means you don't even know who the fuck you are bring. You are going to gather someone off the streets and bring them to our wedding. So much for being intimate.

You know, when all you people get married, I am bring a whole posse to your wedding. I am bringing everyone I've ever met in my life.

Secondly, the lady who's doing our flowers, very nice woman, doesn't seem to understand I am not made of money. We agree on a set price for the florals and now I hear that she "Went a bit over what we agreed on". Why was I not contacted before you did this? Why did you take this upon yourself?

My wedding is 15 days away and all I really want to do is puke. Everytime I get a little bit excited about it, something else happens to just piss me off.

So I'm not dead, just really busy and enjoying myspace a bit more then lj sad to say.

check out Andy and I's wedding website!

http://erinandandy.weddingwindow.com

Everyone's been asking what the bridesmaid dress and the tuxedo looks like so here you all go :) if you are one of the lucky people wearing either one of these items.... GET FITTED AND ORDER THEM! BAH! *bridezilla mode off*

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I actually tried this one on.

Your Wedding Gown Is

Mori Lee Style 2511 Wedding Gown

So adulthood kinda sucks.

We are finally settled in at our house in South Bend. Still kinda living out of boxes to a certain extent because I have just been too exhausted to full unpack. Everything is hitting me all at once and there just seems to be no end in sight for a while. Finances are not the greatest right now since I haven't been working in two weeks. I finally start training at Olive Garden tonight but who knows how long training is and when exactly they'll let me out on the floor. I keep a sobbing phone call to Mom and Dad coming on :(

My car is acting funny and I'm trying to get a tune up scheduled but with work and driving to and from school everyday there is just no time. Plus I got a nice letter from the DMV telling me to ante up $135 dollars for my plates. Add that the $60 a week I'm spending on gas and you have me wanted to shoot myself. No fun in Erin land that's for sure.

I feel like asking Mom to send me my W2s back and filing them online. Now that I know that I don't have any investments in my name, I can just E-file and hopefully get the money back in a couple weeks. I also have to wait 10-12 weeks for $100 in rebates on our new phone service. I haven't even gotten those phones activated yet because I simply can't afford it.

On some good news, Andy and I finally found a church for the wedding and we had our first marriage session with the Priest. Father Eric is very nice, very young too. I'm used to Priests being so old and grandfather like. Father Eric is only a few years older than Andy. Bridesmaid dresses were picked out as were tuxedos. Everything is finally coming along. I just wish I could catch up on the money side. It would make everything alot easier.

Off to one more class since Lenhart cancelled class again today. I understand she is going through some stuff but dang, if I would have know she wasn't going to be in class this morning I could have slept in and not waken up at 5:45.

So do you know what the best thing is about buying furniture? No payments, no interest for a year. Why can't everything have that option?


Yesterday Andy bought a bed and a dining room set and a bought a couch. God knows when they'll get delievered but at least I know they are coming :)

So I had two funny conversations today. One with Liz and one with emo Chris.

Erin: So I found a really pretty bridesmaid dress but it's kinda expensive.
Liz: Just pick whatever you want. I had a feeling it was going to be expensive because it's you.

*OMG* I guess my attempts to keep my high maintance-ness under wraps has failed. Liz caught me so good with that.

Chris: So... you are sort of a dichotomy.
Erin: Really, I hope that's not a nice way of saying I'm two-faced.
Chris: No, no. It's just, here you are in your pink shirt with your pink coat and your pink designer purse, looking like a Barbie Doll but your bookbag has all these very politically charged pins on it. I just find you amazing.. and exhausting.
Erin: Well I guess my work here is done then.

So I've been called a high maintance and a dichotomy all in one day :)

Yesterday was Andy and I's 3 year Anniversary and it was amazing! :) We had dinner, then ice cream and watched the Notebook and drank wine. It was very relaxing and beautiful. And I found out that there's nothing like a glass and a half of wine before bed to make you get a great night sleep :)

Dave and Ruthie's Wedding part 2 was this past weekend and I had a blast. Blume looks absolutely amazing. I am so proud of him, 65 pounds is a lot of weight to lose and he just looks wonderful. It was great hanging out with Liz, Lauren, and Leslie and seeing Sara Stallings and all the sisters. Hugs and looking at each other's engagement rings, it was truly a girly night :)

The house is coming along, the big move in is on Sunday and I'm so excited. I don't know how long we'll stay in South Bend, at least until I'm done with my Masters and possibly phD. Our plan is still to move to the East coast at some point but who knows? Maybe we'll find that we really like the area? It's such a wonderful time right now because anything is possible.

Alot has been going on in Erin World as of late, some good and some not so hot but nothing absolutely terrible. We've got the house all set up in South Bend and are moving in next weekend. I really like the house and I really like the area. There are three bedrooms, not the biggest in all the land but the living room, kitchen, and dining room are really good size. I've got phone, dsl, and cable ordered and ready to go. I did a change of address for myself and Andy still has to do his. I'm being pretty productive today actually even though I really feel crappy.

I've had a series of really bad asthma attacks that started Saturday at Megan's babyshower. I felt so bad because I knew I wasn't being myself but I was just so miserable there. I went to the Doctor and they did a series of tests, took some blood today. They are worried it might be a blood clot, yeah that would be just super :P

I've also been still working on wedding stuff, trying to get a church and looking at bridesmaid dresses. There's several really nice ones at David's Bridal. I think I'm close to picking one.

I did learn something interesting about myself this past weekend. Professor Lenhart does couples counsling for engaged couples and she says one of the first things she asks about is how each one handles conflict and how their parents handled it because that is the ultimate cause of a communication breakdown in the relationship. Well I always thought that I communicated pretty well, I mean Christ I'm a communication major. I saw how my parents deal with conflict, both of them get so hyper with each other and don't really listen to what the other one is saying, and I vowed not to be like that. So whenever Andy and I ever had problems, I always tried to talk it out. I didn't yell, I didn't scream, and I didn't say hurtful things. But in the end, I guess I always had this feeling that nothing ever got resolved.

Well, Saturday at 3:00am, we had our first Bobby and Whitney moment. I won't go into details because if you live in Hamilton, you heard me screaming at him in the middle of the street outside of Pier 32. The funniest thing about all of it is that I feel better after yelling and screaming then I ever have talking things out. I feel at peace and I was ready to forgive alot sooner than I would have been. Has everything I thought was the the right way to communicate nothing but a bunch of crap? I'm not sure. Hopefully there will no need to scream and yell at him for a while but if it has to happen again, we'll see if talking or the screaming works better.

So here's the life in a nutshell...


1) Car almost got broken into by a cracked out crack head. It happened after Andy left for work. He was nice enough to inform the police officer though that he tried to break into the apartment, could not so he attempted to break into my car instead.

2) Because of #1, we rush our house finding a bit.

3) We found a house, moving in Feb

4) Working at Pizza Hut 40 hours a week

5) Classes started. Last undergraduate semester. Only graduate school and phD to go!

6) Wedding plans are coming. I think we may have a church.

Here's a little Higger Face for everyone to enjoy


Pictures of more fun-ness thanks to the digital camera from boo boo bear for Christmas

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WE GOT THE HOUSES BITCHES. NO MORE LIVING IN THE GHETTO FOR US!

Glasses broke again. Ugh ugh ugh. I cannot wait till April when I can go see the eye doctor and get that lasik surgery. That's right bitches, I'm going under the laser and kissing stupid ass glasses good bye!


On a side note, I had my dream where I was Buffy the Vampire Slayer again last night. Sadly, this one did not end with a kinky sex scene with Angel :(

You know what I hate about vacations? You always have to go back to work. I go back today and am on for the next 6 days straight which doesn't sound like alot but when you hate your job, it's torture. Hopefully the money will be good, that's the only thing I can hope for. And, at least I'm working mostly day shifts so I can see Andy.

New Years is going to suck though. I work a double on Saturday and then a morning shift sunday morning. We don't have any set plans because Andy has to work New Years Eve night also. We've been invited to a couple parties but nothing is written in stone.

All I know is that I had a great time at home with my lovey and my family over Christmas and I cannot wait for this new year to start. March we move to South Bend and each month brings us closer to our wedding. I have much to be thankful for.

So it was a very Dooney and Bourke Christmas let me tell you :)

My Mom got me a white wristlet with hearts and Andy got me a black one with the Dooney in scribble letters. When I opened up the Dooney he got me, inside was a digital camera! :) He said I could use the wristlet as a camera bag for it. I love it! :)

Mom also surprised me with an authentic Burberry Cashmere scarf that I love. I cannot believe she spent that much.

I also got....

Sephora makeup from Mom
A CD, new supercool blow dryer, a cuddly outfit from Express, and a DVD from Andy
Jennifer sent me goodies from China including a real pearl bracelet.

I got Andy some vitamins, tea, clothes, hair stuff, and I'm buying him a new pair of Docs when he picks the ones he likes :)

We got back from seeing The Producers and it was frickin awesome. God I wish I lived in New York City. Someday I'll get there.

Andy and I made brunch this morning complete with mimosas. Yum yum!

I love him so much! :)

So I'm working a split shift today and didn't even know about it till last night at work. I came in and Mark, my manager, asked me if I had checked the kitchen schedule. I told him no since I'm a server, why do I give a shit about the kitchen schedule? Well it appears I'm hostessing from 11-2 then coming back and serving 5:00-9:30. Fun times of all fun times.

Oh well, tomorrow I'm waking up early and getting my nails done and going to Fort Wayne :) Then it's off to pick up Andy and work and head home for the holidays. I cannot wait :)

2 years 9 months and one day..that equals out to 1001 days

There is a posting on the internet to make a list of 101 things to accomplish in 1001 days.

September 2nd, 2008 that is the date if I start my goals on January 1st, 2006

The Mission:
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria:
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?
Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as new year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organising and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

Here is my list in no particular order. There is family stuff, school, work, relationships, personal, everything in between. Behind the cut....

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96/100 on my final exam in Petrie Bitches! :)

Ahhh! :) Today I slept till 9:30 and it was AMAZING! Baby Kitty cuddled up next to me with her big fluffy tail in may face and it was just wonderful. Today is dedicated to cleaning. I want to at least get all the laundry done and the living room and kitchen clean. I also need to clean out my car and stop at Maurices at some point, see if they have anything cute for this weekend :) The apartment is abyssmal but I think if I really buckle down, I can get it tidied up in about an hour and a half. I'll just put a play list in and go to it. Only thing that sucks is that our vaccum is a piece of shit, literally. I mean it was only like $30 bucks so I guess you get what you pay for. A vaccum is defintely going on the wedding registry. Hopefully big brother will come through with the Dyson like he hinted he would :)

I made decent money at work last night which was great since Tuesday was such a horrible night. I swear, I got every grumpy, mean person in the world at my section. God damn smokers. Yesterday though I had the entire patio section to myself. I had a party of 13 with an $90 bill left me $20, a party of 10 that tipped pretty well and a party of 5 who only had like a $40 dollar bill who left me $10 and told me Merry Christmas which was so nice :)

I need to put our house application in the mail today. It's just missing a couple phone numbers I have to look up. I work tonight at 5:00 till 9:30 so I should be the first or second cut. I'll make sure to pack before I leave so if Andy happens to get off before I do, we can just leave right away.

Lots to do but it's nice knowing I have time now to do it :)

The hardest semester of my life is officially done. I took my last two finals today. 23 credit hours, 30-40 hours a week of work, planning a wedding, working out, trying to be a good fiance to Andy, the most stressful time I've encountered as of yet is pretty much done.

I could talk about how I think my grades are going to come out but I would rather wait until Tuesday for when the grades will be posted and go from there. All I know is that I am done and it feels really, damn good.

Everyone's asking what I'm going to do with myself now, I'm gonna be so bored these next three weeks. Like hell I am. I'm going to sleep and workout and clean and finally allow myself to be excited for the wedding because I didn't have time to do so this semester. I'm gonna study for the GRE and do yoga and do my hour on the stairmaster while I watch Regis and Kelly.. all the things that make me happy. Plus working at Pizza Hut but you can't win them all. It's going to be great and next semester is going to be wonderful.

Final semester, moving into our house, more wedding planning, a new scenery and change of pace. I cannot wait.

I really want to thank Andy for as patient as he's been with me through this semester. Every time I was stressed out and mad at myself for not having time to work out or upset cause I couldn't sleep, he was there to hold me and kiss my forehead and tell me I was beautiful and how he can't wait till I'm his wife. He got me through so much and I can't thank him enough.

I"M OUT BITCHES :)